the one less traveled by...

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

(By Robert Frost via)

I sometimes wonder how my life would have turned out if I had chosen to stay in Georgia. Living with my decision to move to California is hard sometimes. I am homesick for my family and for the way of life I used to know. When I was in college, I assumed that I would be engaged by graduation, marry a military officer, and live my life as a military wife. I don't know why, but that was the mindset most of my friends had as well [part of the reason of going to college is to get your degree in MRS]. And they all ended up in that life. I am the only non-married one in my group, and the only one that took a different path.


Moving to Los Angeles for a boyfriend = stupid. I am now stuck in a job I don't necessarily like, not living up to my full potential. I have had to max out credit cards just to pay rent or put gas in my car. Is this what I really wanted when I told my parents that I wanted to "step out on my own?"


I have to think that moving to Los Angeles has taught me a lot of life lessons - that family is important and to not take for granted the 48 hours you get to spend with your mom and dad three times a year...that your friends will forget about you and the less you talk or connect with them, the more likely it is that you will be replaced...that "making it on your own" is a load of crap and that you need friends and family in your life to make you happy.


What good has come out of this path? I am most grateful for my relationship with C. If that is the reason I am here, then I know it was worth all of this. He is the absolute best thing to happen to me and when I think of this path I've taken, I now know it was in order to lead me to him. Cheesy? Yes. True? Definitely.


So sorry for this heavy post! I have a lot of things going on in my life that I am in constant worry over, but I have to believe it will all work out. While I might have said moving here for a boyfriend was stupid, it isn't something I regret. I chose this path, and I will never know how my life may have turned out if I had stayed in Georgia. I do wonder from time to time, but it isn't important. This is my life now, and I have to do my best to embrace where I am and enjoy this path I've taken. After all, we're only given one life so I want to make the most of it!

Have a happy Tuesday, friends!

(all photos except the last are from weheartit)